Today I'm grieving the loss of some relationships.
I've begun to find enough poise of spirit to be able to ask them -- real people in my life, not just interwebs analysts and pundits -- why was this a choice? Can you explain it to me? Even if I can't possibly agree with that choice, I'm hoping I can at least learn what the other perspective was. But I never do get a real thought-out logical answer, just blithering and an endless loop of excuses.
What did I miss? What don't I understand? Was it about money, was it about power, was it about revenge for a perceived wrong ... or was it always only about hate, misogyny, racism?
I'm furiously angry most of the time now, but I don't want to have my own spirit turn dark and ugly and become filled with hate and blame and vengeance. I want to find quietness of heart. I need to make some kind peace between myself and the world before I die.
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My phlebotomists and I shared a tearful moment this afternoon when I went in for my bloodwork.
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Protests around the country today, hopefully only the beginning.
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Antithesis: direct opposite; parts set in opposition or contrast
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